It’s occurred to me over the years that God requires me to STEP OUT IN FAITH before he will actually reveal himself and his plans to me. And, he did it again.
I’ve been praying continuously for the boys in their new school, if you’ve been reading for a while you know that this is our first year in public, and, It hasn’t been easy. There are now 35 kids in Lucas’ Kinder class and Tommy is having a rough time adjusting. I’ve thought about homeschooling, an option that I was terrified of, but willing to do if that’s what was needed. I realize that I can’t protect or shelter my kids forever, but I can keep them safe until we teach them (and they learn) how to choose friends and their little play-doh minds aren’t as mailable.
We’ve been on the waiting list at Calvary for a few months now because we want Ruby to have a little socialization away from the family and believe me, SHE NEEDS IT! So when I received the call from the school letting me know there was a spot for her, but that it was for Monday, Wednesday and Friday’s, full days, I was a little worried. I didn’t feel like we could afford to put her (or the boys for that matter) back in. So I prayed, and prayed, and prayed. I kept arguing with God about what in the heck it is I am supposed to be doing. PLEASE GOD! JUST SHOW ME WHAT YOU WANT ME TO BE DOING AND I’LL DO IT.
Ruben and I talked about it and we didn’t really come to a final decision, but for some reason I felt like I needed to take the spot, so I called. I told them I’d take the spot for Ruby and they were ecstatic and so was I, but of course I was worried. Toward the end of the conversation, Mrs. B. asked me if I had gotten the message from Mrs. C. I said no…all I had was a voice mail from you. She said “Well hold on let me get her, she wants to talk to you”.
*Flash back to a month prior where I asked the school if they had any need for marketing or web work. It was a shot in the dark, but I figured If I could do something to supplement the tuition and get my kids back into this school, I would.*
Mrs. C got on the phone and told me that the pastors wanted to meet with me to discuss some work and also a possible scholarship for the boys.
PRAISE GOD! Seriously, did I just hear what she said?! I set up the appointment and said goodbye. Not more than 5 seconds later, Ruben came downstairs and said “Oh, hey…I forgot to tell you, Mrs. C left a voice mail for you on my phone”.
HOLY GUACAMOLE! I didn’t even know that she had called to discuss work with me when I called to secure Ruby’s spot.
I knew right then that I was doing was exactly what God wanted me to do. Instant affirmation that required my stepping out in faith, FIRST and full trust in the little nudges that I had been feeling.
We met, we talked, we have big ideas, and best of all, my boys are starting back at Calvary on Monday.
I sit in total awe of the things that are happening in our life right now, and I owe it all to him. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you. With everything that I am, with everything that you’ve created me to be. You are an amazing God.