For My Family.

Those who know me very well know that ever since I was laid-off, I’ve been kinda struggling with the whole being a Mommy thing, it does not come naturally to me in fact, I have to work at it, a lot.  There’s got to be more for me, right?  I mean this isn’t IT for me, it’s not ALL there is, right?  Doing laundry and emptying the dishwasher for the one-thousandth time this week.  No, No, surely there’s more.

I’ve been praying constantly for nearly a year specifically about how He want’s to use me, and I thought I had some very clear direction…so at the beginning of this year, I started to turn a passion and hobby of mine into a business and, what can I say but thank you.  Thank you to all who have shown such amazing support and allowed me to shoot you in order to build up my portfolio.  Thank you to a very dear friend for taking me under her wing and allowing me to assist and second shoot with her but, here’s the thing…it’s  started to interfere with my first job. Being a Mom.

That’s really hard for me to admit because I  just want to spread my wings and fly but I have more important things to do, like raise my four children the way they need to be raised. I know it may sound kinda old fashion but, The Hubby and I have decided my role as mother has to come first. We made the decision about a month ago and while I’ve been having a hard time swallowing it, I know for sure it’s right.   We decided that I should use my talents to document the family and our journey together, I was inspired to do so by another mommy-blogger Ashley Ann who is a phenomenal photographer and mother to 3 young boys and one little girl whom I would have never found without my friend Melissa.  She (Melissa) said to me one day “You remind me of this family on a blog I read.  They are your little twin family.” Well, I reached out to Ashley Ann one day to basically tell her how fab I thought she was and that she really inspired me.  I also shared with her my struggle.  She wrote me back a very nice note but the one line that totally stuck out to me was “Every mom has to decide for herself where her time is spent, I’ve never regretted my decision….”  It was so non judgmental, she totally got my struggle and really helped me in making my decision.

My direction was clear but it wasn’t about me or building a business as I thought.  It was to give my family my gift and create memories for us as well as serve my close friends by capturing their moments in the in-between times.

I will build my portfolio slowly, take care of my family and document this crazy ride we are on.  Everyday may not be the easiest, but I’ll never get yesterday back and In my life I love you more.


There are places I remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever, not for better
Some have gone and some remain

All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I’ve loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new

Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more

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